this week gta be the worst week i have. yesterday's the worst day.


i dont want to see you anywhere near.. my mind will think stuffs. please.



there was this rude shock. what happened nearly 8 months ago happened again.
and i have to go through all the emotional upheaval again. it was terrible. i have to settle everything all over again. and it compromised us.

God, must you do this kind of stunts on me? how crude.




okay enough of the emotional stuffs.





today was good.. first love was excellent. all of us nailed our solos, perfect. even felicia managed to nail it lehh. hahahahah. then after that was practice, settled stuff again. after band talked to ms kumari, settle even more stuff. then i talked to wsn, and it was a fruitful day(:


we promised.. dont forget(:
and im sorry for everything..






haha i think i wont smile for at least for a few days. there's like a stone in my stomach, pulling everything down, including my mouth. so it'd be frowning. haiyahhh.








okay bah..


a prayer

i pray
for blessings
for trust
for understanding
for love
for the strength to guide us along
for us not to relieve bad memories
but the good ones
the strength to help me forget the betrayal
the strength for her to resist the turn of tides and be strong in the face of heavy emotional upheavals
and lastly
i pray
for the bond that we shared
to not be compromised by anyone
for us to be strong, mentally
and for her forgiveness
as im sorry for all the things ive done.

i pray..



iloveyou(: