this year is coming to an end soon. pretty fast isnt it.
early jan was a blast. mid jan was heartbreaking. end jan was wtf. haha.
feb to oct was a rollercoaster ride of emotions. from anger to denial to heartbreak to stupid crushes to elation to disbelief to sweetness to disapproval to despise to disappointment, you got it all.
despicable people should be, well, despised.
a leopard does not change its spots.
first impression matters.
go about doing what you do best and it'll come naturally.
people are not as simple-minded as they were last time. everyone does things for a purpose nowadays. sucks isnt, life.
but then since we're in this life, why not make the most out of it. out of each and every problem, spot the intricacies and the small wonders of it.
yet again, every man for himself. what others do does not affect oneself.
to be brutally honest, some people are just brainless. really.
all these people should burn in hell.
the intricacies of life that people always fail to appreciate.
the shallow, materialistic and the uncouth, the nonchalant, the ignorant. when the choice is so bloody blatant and between two options, he or she chooses the third one.
despicable people. posers.
at least a lesson is learnt. be wary.
adds up, you get fatigue.
why bother?
got back results. wont say much here because its rather sensitive to others. but what i will say is chinese. i got 44% HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. 1% to E. which is possible. i dont really care though. tsl can shove her ass with the words "CHINESE B" imprinted on it into my face and i will not be intimidated to take it. because i will pass chinese A' level. AND i wont be going for the extra 3 months of chinese lessons if i do get it because 1. its a waste of my time 2. they just wna give us sadistic torture crafted by the draconian devil herself from the lowest level of hell 3. i have better things to do.
west winds project next year.
im sure im better than this.
guess im not welcome.
which leads to the first question. why bother?
ive just learnt to appreciate 1712 overture. musical parodies are really very interesting.
our op is gna rock :D
i&r is a fucktard.
why are there such people. people who cannot see the lighter side of life. people who just cannot stop poking their noses everywhere. people who think that they are always right. people who think that others must always give in to them. people who does not have proper self esteem. people who just cannot differentiate whats right and wrong. people who do not have common sense. people who cannot adapt to places.
there are much more examples but listing it all out will take years.
i myself have flaws but i do not think i am that bad a person. i do not go around doing things that people despise, that people dislike, that people hate.
except for one mistake. that one mistake.
and i believed i have received my just desserts. this year started horribly, and everything was not going in the direction i wanted.
thats when you realise, you have to be careful around people. never trust the people around you, unless you get to know them. first impressions formed by other people about you will never change. neither will your first impression of others.
so, be careful.
i learnt that lesson, with a great cost, and it would never turn out the way i would like it.
the way that things are right now, one is tempted to blame it all on himself. but it is not entirely his fault, is it not. maybe, it was never his fault to being with. he was trying to do what he think is right.
and then comes the sorts of people mentioned above.
people who remain stuck in their previous environment. and thus develop a thinking that he or she rule above the others.
initiative. a key value. but what happens when your intentions were misunderstood, or perhaps, twisted?
you lead to serve. and you serve to lead. five months did not reap any rewards, or any improvement. in fact it got worse.
just get out. get out now. save yourself the trouble. you never wanted to be here in the first place, and you chose that because you have a passion. it is in your blood. it is what you are good at. the only thing you are good at.
why stay at a place where you continue to be ridiculed, aimed, despised, and underappreciated?
you never receive recognition. everyone is acting the way they do because they do not feel appreciated. they do not feel wanted. they do not feel recognized. all everyone else can do is to choose a target and attack.
and the real ones suffering are the ones that have obligations. do you think i do not care? the way you look after everything. every wrinkle on your face, the tiredness reflected in your eyes, even your simple body posture. it pains me, pains me more than anything else. i am sorry that i cannot help you. in fact i add to your burden. i can just get out and everything will be fine. no one misses me.
beware of the realities of life, my friend. the world is full of people with diverse characters and personalities. take one wrong step, and you may find yourself having a very pathetic life. make the correct connections, strike the correct deals. avoid the people that may give you trouble, and certainly do not choose the incorrect option.