i&r is a fucktard.






why are there such people. people who cannot see the lighter side of life. people who just cannot stop poking their noses everywhere. people who think that they are always right. people who think that others must always give in to them. people who does not have proper self esteem. people who just cannot differentiate whats right and wrong. people who do not have common sense. people who cannot adapt to places.


there are much more examples but listing it all out will take years.


i myself have flaws but i do not think i am that bad a person. i do not go around doing things that people despise, that people dislike, that people hate.


except for one mistake. that one mistake.



and i believed i have received my just desserts. this year started horribly, and everything was not going in the direction i wanted.



thats when you realise, you have to be careful around people. never trust the people around you, unless you get to know them. first impressions formed by other people about you will never change. neither will your first impression of others.


so, be careful.


i learnt that lesson, with a great cost, and it would never turn out the way i would like it.


the way that things are right now, one is tempted to blame it all on himself. but it is not entirely his fault, is it not. maybe, it was never his fault to being with. he was trying to do what he think is right.

and then comes the sorts of people mentioned above.



people who remain stuck in their previous environment. and thus develop a thinking that he or she rule above the others.



initiative. a key value. but what happens when your intentions were misunderstood, or perhaps, twisted?




you lead to serve. and you serve to lead. five months did not reap any rewards, or any improvement. in fact it got worse.



just get out. get out now. save yourself the trouble. you never wanted to be here in the first place, and you chose that because you have a passion. it is in your blood. it is what you are good at. the only thing you are good at.


why stay at a place where you continue to be ridiculed, aimed, despised, and underappreciated?


you never receive recognition. everyone is acting the way they do because they do not feel appreciated. they do not feel wanted. they do not feel recognized. all everyone else can do is to choose a target and attack.




and the real ones suffering are the ones that have obligations. do you think i do not care? the way you look after everything. every wrinkle on your face, the tiredness reflected in your eyes, even your simple body posture. it pains me, pains me more than anything else. i am sorry that i cannot help you. in fact i add to your burden. i can just get out and everything will be fine. no one misses me.




beware of the realities of life, my friend. the world is full of people with diverse characters and personalities. take one wrong step, and you may find yourself having a very pathetic life. make the correct connections, strike the correct deals. avoid the people that may give you trouble, and certainly do not choose the incorrect option.