driving down the familiar road
walking around the familiar place
passing that gate
that room
that theatre
remembering everything
and watching them,
its like.
deja vu.





i have an option, not very desirable but not very impossible either.




nyw auditions went.. i cannot tell whether it went well or not, but personally i think i screwed up, its as if the big fella up there doesnt want me to go nyw. i had a totally nicely seasoned reed a week ago, and somehow it was spoiled after 3 days. then i got a new one, 3 days ago. and today it spoiled again. no reed spoils after 3 days i swear. i have no choice but to make do with it, but my tone was not as mellow and thick as before. its utterly stupid. please let things go my way. i want to control my own future, not let fate decide.

got danse diabolique for sightreading. alto score. what the hell. so i cannot cheat =/




suck.