i am not going to blame anyone, as i originally was going to. not spore's school education system. not the jc. not the cambridge markers. and certainly not You.

i am just going to blame myself.




to be so fucking dumb. to be so ambitious. to be so confident. to set so high expectations.

when in the end, all crashes down, hard. because you aimed for the moon, instead of the sky.




when everyone's appeals are like going in as smoothly as julia's oily hair. why am i different from everyone? why?


maybe. im just fucking dumb and noob.
cant dsa.
cant get desired results.
cant do anything.




in short. im a loser.