my day was okay.
reached school determined to be not so heavyhearted, but i know it's to no avail. well, i was still heavyhearted in the end, but then ahya kinda expected.
chapel in the basement. mostly kept to myself while azli farhann and amirul talk nonsense. haha. was studying geog. (impacts of tourism, blahblah)
then came chinese. that idiot vicepresident of band go talk rubbish. hahaha. didnt say much, and then event of the day - FIRE DRILL.
its nothing much la, as usual. counted the fellas in class, tanned in the sun. feeling very heavyhearted. argh well, after the drill went to chinese class to collect my bag and went for geog.
stayed awake for one period, slept for the remaining two. feeling just as tired and worse, felt even more heavy. as if i would never smile properly. haha. anyway, went for recess.
i had a quick meal and went to the library. now it seems as if i'll never smile at all, with all the old thoughts and feelings returning to me. felt sad, confused, a twinge of anger. ah well.
irritated cheryl for awhile with my "oh cheryl" sounds. hahahaha. found out some "interesting" things from her. with free history period studied geog with a familiar tune blasting in my ipod. it seems as if i wna go deaf. well, maybe i want to be.
also had a free chem period. studied chem and geog, read a letter. surprising i felt numb. like, i dno what to say or think. bio was funny, as reproduction is in order. haha. and then, came the high part of today. thought everything was going to be better.
felt happy throughout, had an excellent band practice. sinyi visited us! ate her *very* hard cookies. hahaha but it was nice(:
and then went back home, and i started to feel heavy again. i dont understand. at all.
its back to square one.
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